First day of July.... It was just another morning for us as newly wed. after 10 years of being together planning of our hopes and dreams. we are trying to configure it out why I felt something different this pass few days.... but questions are over...why? 5 am in the morning, Rolly and I try to take use a home pregnancy test, and it is POSITIVE (kids i recorded it in our video cam so try to watch it when you grow up so that you could see how excited parents are we!!
Six in the morning - excited to spread the news- we do phone calls and texting to our friends and relatives, and we decided to come to my husbands parents place but unfortunately; around 8 am in the morning, after getting to the comfort room, i sees BLOOD in my undies!!!! woh... what a great surprise!!! Nag i-spotting na pala ako....
My husband and I immediately take me to the hospital because I already felt something was wrong with me, I have a back pain which I can't explain, thank God we still have a car that we can use in case of emergency that time. When I was there I cant help but to blame my self not taking care of the life inside my womb, I've pity the tiny life inside of me because of my negligence.
The nearest was JOSE REYES MEMORIAL HOSPITAL... Sorry for those who work there but for my personal experiences that is the ' JOSE REYES WORST HOSPITAL' Ive ever seen. today...Even I am near to death I will not ask anybody "consciously" to take me there. I've treated harshly by a lady doctor there by saying my baby is already dead!
starting from the emergency hallway, You know guys, I need to fetch my own wheelchair that could carry me to the emergency hospital they only allow one immediate family member to get inside of that emergency room and that particular time my husband who brought me was being ask my personal information. Because of my terrible feeling I dont like to make any move feeling my being will fall behind my knees. but a nurses and doctors named Brenda Barerro MD (Lic. #0108018) told me to lay in bed. I'm on my own try to get on the bed (nauntog pa nga ako kasi malapit ako sa headboard ng umupo kaya pag higako nauntog ako) even there is a nurses no body's helping me to jump on the bed. Apparently the doctor inserted something on my vigina I dont know buong kamao nya yata un, which I resisted because ksi it hurts me a lot, this doctor s start to get irritated kasi parang nahirapan cyang gawin ung gusto nya on my actions and saying "alam mo, wag ka nang umarte kasi nalaglag na ung baby mo! kung ayaw mo umuwi ka na o lumipat ka ng hospital ang dami pang pasyente nagtatagal tayo sayo!( tutusukin ba naman ung "ano" ko using 5 fingers sino ba naman hindi masasaktan non! my goodness) can somebody tell me what legal action should I do to this doctor.
The moment the lady doctor said that, I don't know what happened to be but kasi prang kanina lang excited ako so parang nabuhusan ako ng malamig na tubig so I immediately stood up (nawala ung hilo ko ) and said to the doctor. "Patay na pala eh- ako papatayin mo rin ba ko, Di tigilan mo yan ilipat nyo ko!" I went out to the emergency room on my own immediately and shouting to everybody to transfer me to other hospital because that doctor will kill me!
My God does the doctor knows how tragic to lost a baby?? I know there so many patient need to attend to in a public hospital but how sensible they are to act like in such a way . I'm in so much in pain...feeling the life inside of me was already lost.
My husband angrily ask the doctor what happened, the doctor says I dont cooperate w/ them, but i shouted hysterically, "sinabi mo maarte ako at patay na ung baby ko kung maarte ako magpalipat ako ng hospital! now ilipat nyo ko ng hospital!" I hit the wall besides me several times to show the kind of feeling I have that time and also maybe to catch attention to my family members outside. I stand and fell off the bed on my own, that's the only time one nurse try to assist me, I grab the wheelchair I used earlier and sit, while the nurse take me to my out of the room I am really shouting na "Ilabas na nila ako, ayoko dito!" thats the time my husband question the doctors and the nurses what happen, I've heard that so I interrupted their conversation and said "sabi ng doctor na yan, patay na ung baby ko!" Calmly the nurse said that we need to get some sort of clearance slip but I'm still bleeding and I'm still in the dangerous situation. I clearly heard that but I still insisted na lumabas na. Mentally and physically tortured; Im thinking whats the use of staying, I dont care...I felt I want to die!
Reality check - We really need money in order to be attended immediately! But whats the use of deducting taxes our salary thats being used like in this public hospitals bye the government. We Cant afford not to have money. Kaya kidz, study hard!and work hard, this is just want situation that your not just begging for your life but also begging you to respect you as a person. Iniisip siiguro ng mga doctor, walang wala tong mga taong ito kaya kahit ano gawin or sabihin eh pwede nilang gawin kasi walang kakayahan para mag reklamo. " Kung di lang tlga emergency naku....
After that we transfer from Mary Jhonston Hospital in Tondo, my husband insisted to know what really happens to me,
Prayers... a lot of prayers is what we need in times of difficulties, why? I still prayed to the Lord even the first doctor said na wala na nga ung baby mo, sinisi ko ung sarili ko, nag "sana" effect ako I mean "sana di nalang kami namasyal, sana di nalang ako naglakad, or sana di nalang ako lumabas." I still saying to my baby the word sorry several time until we reach to the next hospital. Accomodation inthe emergencyr room is fine, they check me again but this doctor is different from the first one , she seem very much carefull and calm holding me while doing the routinary check-up. After the check-up the doctor said I have spotting due to an oversize embryo development, oha! possible daw na twin they ask me kung may kambal na sa amin I told wla pa. that why I need to take a rest. I cleared up again what the doctor stated oversize embryo, this mean I still have my baby in me.... It was a surprise and I was really happy then.
After a week they ask me to have another check up and that's the time they confirm that I am four weeks pregnant, twin- but unfortunately I need to take another bed rest because if one of the baby gets weak the other one could eat the other one (i magine magkakainan sila) and that could means I will lost the other one. so I had take two months bed rest!
For almost 3-4 months I take Duphaston ( pampakapit) that was the only time I became choosy on my food. but after that I have the most comfortable 2nd and 3rd trimester days. My husband never failed to buy me different kinds of fruits and Milk for pregnant moms (Anmum) you know what I don't like milk, my lactose intolerance ako, you know vomiting after drinking milk but because I am pregnant, tiniis ko yon, later ko nalang na-discover my chocolate pala!
So January2007 was my last checkup to Dr. Carino's clinic, no diet or everthing, she told my my I could pass on until Februay 8 I could pass on premature labor. so February 8 i take may absent in school, I stayed at home. but guess what I have a strange feeling that there is something happening to me, (lagi akong naiihi) so call up my mama, and said what is happening to me. later at 11 am my mom called again and a friend of mine (ate nancy) who was happen to be midwife told that that my water bag might be broken already, so I immediately called up my Doctor whose happen to me on her way to her clinic, and ask me to have a checkup, thank God the clinic was only a few meters from our house. The doctor told me that I'm on my way so Id better to prepare for my things, I can still take bath if I want but I need to be at the hospital before 4 pm.
MCU Hospital 09FEB07
I don't feel so much pain when I was in the labor room, expect for back pain, its just that i have the strange feeling inside of me. unlike in some movies which ive seen women shouting in the delivery room." umiiri nga ako ng kusa eh kahit di sinasabi ng doctor naiinip na kasi ako" but unfortunately my blood pressure get higher, they waited more than one hour to make by blood pressure become stable until the time they told me I must undergo a C/S operation.
PROUD PARENTS OF A TWIN BABIES
What I remember and feel they start to clean and wipe my tummy then another doctor told me that they would give me a shot of anesthesia, he pinched my side but i still feel it. they give me three times of doz. of anesthesia before I don't feel anything... You know why, I eat a lot before had my labor moral lesson is do not eat if you knew you on the way....
Nevertheless what I only remembered was the chat inside the operating room by my o.b. and assitant doctors, "who would be the eldest in the twin that they will declare?, " "magkapatong kasi sila" if I gave birth in a normal way, it would be twin A according to the ultrasound report and(thats ace) because he is the one already showing up -but since it is an operation -twin B was the first one to get out (that's amir) - then they asking me for a video camera after taking the first one, they call my husband but we don't have that time. I can say I very glad having Dra. Carino as my doctor, she really take good care of me from the very beginning until the end. When they lift my second baby and ask me to see it, I thank God because now I now my babys are safe, I closed my eyes and as I looses my senses...Next morning I had a chance to see my new born angels... using a wheelchair Roll and I go straight to the N.I.C.U. and here what they look like:
ACE MARLY AT BIRTH
AMIR MYROL AT BIRTH
Some experience though me a lot that it is not easy to become a mother... If could only choose I would rather give a normal birth for my kids for easy recovery, but unfortunately because of my high blood pressure, it is risky to take chances specially I am holding two life inside my womb. My doctor told me after I gave birth that this is one of the causes of having a twin birth.
On my second day, the worst thing that happen to me was I cannot pee" (umihi) they did something that I cant really explain the pain... They called it "sonda" in tagalog term where a little tube will put in somewhere near in the vigina. I could hardly hurt the doctor who making this to me.
It thought pain was over, but there another thing. it is true that ipagdarasal mo pala talaga na "mautot ka at madumi ka na" because until this this happen to you... you cannot taste anything. I am really hungry but the only thing they gave me is a water in the cotton buds paste in my lips. Thank God for the dextrose. after 12 hours It was only late night when I feel i need to get up in bed bec. i like to go the the toilet but sadly its hard for me to move... Bedpan was there to rescue me. but the was the most humiliating thing that Ive shown to my husband. But you know what kids, your dad patiently taking care of me all they way, he never hesitate or "mandiri" Hes just laughing quietly cause its late night.
I stayed in the hospital for almost 5 days, supposed to be 3 days only but my B.P. is not quite cooperating. My sons needs to be in the NICU for one week. I could hardly imagine our hospital bills, I wonder If one of twins is baby girl I would rather named her "Precious" !
It was Feb 15, 2007 and It is the day for my twins get out from the hospital...
ACE MARLY WEEKS OLD
AMIR MYROL WEEKS OLD
Having a baby is one of the most magical moments of your life. It practically turns your world upside down.
The moment you hold your baby in your arms for the first time, you wonder how could such a tiny bundle of thing creates so much emotions within you. And you wonder if it's possible that you've actually brought such a tiny, beautiful being into this world.
It is true that a baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bankroll smaller, home happier, clothes shabbier, the past forgotten, But the future worth living for.
As newly parents of this twin little angels having them is surely the most beautifully irrational act that two people in love can commit.
